Today started as an ordinary day. I got up, got ready, and joined a few of my favorite people for a couple of meetings. We were praying for one another and planning some great things for our church family and outreach.
Before we left, our pastor told us to bring closed toe shoes for team building. A knot immediately grew in my gut. I started imagining all matter of things from ziplining to ropes courses. The questions in my mind grew as the day went on. Would I be able to participate? Between my back, my not-so-ideal weight, and extreme fear of closed spaces, my anxiety grew by the minute.
As our pastor told us that we were going to an axe throwing venue, all kinds of new concerns came to mind. Would I be able to throw the axe? Would I chop off my toes? Would I end up at on one of those reality emergency room tv shows with an axe in my face?
We arrived at the venue. My fear growing and my nerves wrecked. We signed waivers which made me wonder even more if I needed to be doing this axe throwing stuff, but I wasn’t going to be the one to wimp out.
We were instructed in safety and technique then we were handed an axe. Yep. A real live chop-some-wood, cut-your-hand-off axe. What in the world? I thought, “I can’t do this. I’m too old. I’m too out of shape. I am girl for heavens sake.”
Has God ever told you to do something and your knee jerk reaction was “I am too… or not enough…”? Did you tell him why you couldn’t do the thing he told you to do? Did you say, “I’d love to be obedient, but did you know I am a girl?”
Did God respond with, “Oh no! I didn’t realize you couldn’t do this thing. I will get someone else to do the thing I meant for you to do.”? Nope. I can assure you he did not change his plan because of your perceived ineptness.
Just like when Moses asked God, “Who am I?” and God responded with “But I will be with you”, God is with us. (Ex. 3:11-12) God is with us when he says do this thing. God is with us when our circumstances are more than we can bear. God is with us when we are walking in the valley.
Our ability or inability is not what matters. God with us is what matters. In his presence, the impossible becomes possible. In his presence, we find strength. In his presence, chains are broken, marriages are rescued, and hearts are made new.
Psalm 114:7-8 says “Tremble, O earth, at the presence of the Lord … “.
Psalm 16:11″… in your presence there is fullness of joy …”
James 4:8 “Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you …”
I was asked to throw an axe as a part of team building. I was asked to do something that I could not do. I did it anyway. I picked up that scary cut-your-hand-off axe and threw it.
All of the sudden, that thing that I couldn’t even imagine myself doing, I was doing. I was not only doing it, but did it well. Not only was I doing it well, I became comfortable doing it.
Today I threw an axe … like a boss.
In the midst of throwing an axe, God reminded me where I find strength and peace.
Much Love peeps!