Philippians 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything …
Monday morning, I got up and got ready for work. I was feeling a tad bit under the weather, so I thought I might go to the doc and get a quick shot to get me over this sinus crud then on to work.
For the past couple of weeks, doctor’s offices have been overcrowded due to the flu. I heard stories about lines around the building, so I left early with the idea that if it was too crowded, I would go on to work and try again later.
I arrived and there was only one other person to sign in before me and she was a new patient which meant paperwork for her and first dibs for me.
Much to my dismay, the receptionist began to call several people that came in after me to the window for their information and copay. I began to get antsy. She hadn’t called my name or asked for my copay. That meant I was moving further down the line.
I wondered what happened. Had she forgotten me? What if my sign-in sticker got stuck to another? What if my doctor wasn’t here yet? What if I was going to be stuck in this germ-infested waiting room?
As my mind continued to race with “what ifs”, I decided I should ask if she needed my card. This was my polite way of asking, “have you forgotten me?” As I approach the window and offer my cards, she graciously says, “Yes. I need those. Those other people had appointments at 8 am.” Then she smiled sweetly as always.
Well didn’t I feel silly? They had appointments. I was doubting her. She was working for me, but I didn’t realize it. Because I didn’t know what was going on, I became impatient and anxious.
I have been to this doctor time and time again. Kristy, the receptionist, has performed her duties flawlessly every time. But today, I decided to doubt her abilities. She had never let me down. She has never failed to complete her duties and get me promptly back to the doctor, but still I doubted.
Philippians 4:6-7 came to mind. I am guilty of the same thing with him. I know he handles everything, but still I doubt and try to figure things out on my own. Be anxious for nothing and the peace of God will overcome you. I know this to be true. I have experienced it. Still I choose to fret.
Lord, help me to rely on you and not on me, so the peace you extend will wash over me in moments when I am anxious and afraid.